okay i think i need to go for anger management course. yea really. i'm so freaking pissed now i wanna vent my anger by hitting something or throwing something. normally i would vent it all on hockey, and hit the ball as hard as i can. but now there's no freaking trainings. thanks to SOMEONE. i dunno how the hell people manage to just look down, keep quiet, and smile. i really dunno how. i should learn from them. especially SYA! i'm so pissed by that that something then that that something else comes up, adding on to it, making it so much worse. unfortunately some people just can't control their mouths and what they say. then to add on to it freaking ------ did something so freaking irresponsible, then she still have the cheeks to say something that pisses me off so bad. OOKAY, CONTROL NADIAH. RELAAAAAAXXXX. breathe in. breathe out. AAAAAAAHHHHHHH. FUCK, go and die.
but anyway, i LOVED LOVED LOVED today. even though i was feeling very pissed off. i dunno, i just seem to LOVE thursdays. because thursdays seem to be the only days i can get so hyper, laughing my ass off until my stomach hurts. and thursdays are the days when i manage to laugh like crazy, despite all the problems i'm facing. no matter how depressed or pissed i am, something ALWAYS happens which make my day and let me forget about everything else. damn, i need more of these days. i like being able to be happy and laugh like nobody's business. to not care what others think and just laugh.
omg so out of point la. okay so anyway, today was a very funny day. went to school with nat. HAHA constance mixed up my name and nat's name. she thought i was natasha. HAHA. malay was erm HAHA. nadee made me laugh like crazy with her retardedness. then erm recess. ERRRMMMM.. oh yea. ERM i ran around the whole canteen asking people around when genelle's birthday was. wanted to ask sarah but she left alr. so it turned out no one else knows her birthday except for HAHA! so genelle, you owe me a birthday present because i found out when your birthday is without you telling me. so YESS! HAHA! OH OH OH. i accompanied hwee to the canteen with pootree. then hwee was like what should i buy? so i went "FISHBALLS! DODO FISHBALLS!" hahaha! then hwee started to sing the DODO song cause i forgot how it went. HAHAHA i went laughing like crazy at her. for the rest of the day that song was stuck into my head. HAHAHA.
right. so once i start laughing i'll go on laughing for even the slightest thing, and i did during home econs. HAHAHA. haha then during lunch was so freaking hilarious. for the FIRST FIRST TIME ever, it was hwee who got bullied and not me. i just sat there and laughed my ass off at her. HAHAHA she got bullied like crazy by sarah and gayle, then she started to pull genelle's hair. HAHAHA. genelle stepped on hwee's specs. i was being a nice friend, i just sat there and laugh, instead of abandoning my friends and run away. haha see! i'm NICEE! HAHAHAHA HWEE SO SPASTIC! in a GOOD way of course.
then PBL was HAHAHA. oh man i find EVERYTHING funny, so don't mind me. haha apparently SOMEONE missed me cause i never sit with her for pbl. HAHAHA! so we passed letters to each other instead. and i REFUSED to show petrina how i look like in specs. HAHA. gayle laughed at me when she saw what i wrote in petrina's letter. i wrote "HAHAHA! petrina you're so retarded. HAHAHA! hwee is so retarded. HAHAHA!" hahaha.
"you mean piece of SHIT" -does the hand gestures. HAHAHA HWEE.
fishball, chickenball, all sorts of food ball. I LOVE DODO, shiok shiok!-two thumbs up. HAHAHA!
BDIV FINALS TOMORROW! everyone MUST come down and give your support okay! AHHH i'm so scared! HAHA i'm not even playing and i can feel the pressure and the nervousness. what more if i really played man. GOOD LUCK FOR YOUR FINALS BDIV!(: CRESCENT HOCKEY NUMBER ONE! i love crescent hockey so so much. <3333
AAAHH i was bitching the whole time. NOT GOOD NOT GOOD. i'm so sorry, i just dunno how to keep my mouth shut when i need to. i just can't stop myself from saying things i don't mean to say. i just can't control my mouth from saying things thats bothering me. bitching isn't going to help improve on any problems. it's not going to make the problem any better. it's just going to cause conflicts among other people. AAAHH i'm sorry, i need to rant but i can't. there's no use anyway. omg nadiah, next time, don't even open your mouth at all. whats the point anyway when every word that comes out of my mouth is wrong.
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